对于自己的曾经一切经历,

你是否有想过自己的不是?

缺点?

宁可把手指向别人,

自己的错误是否有比其它人更清楚?

这是我第一次那么的冷静看着自己..

我的能力是否真的是如此优越?

每当开始工作, 地位, 职责, 能力..

越来越重, 我开始感到压力

往往总是觉得太多因素需要考虑,

每件小事物都需要众多考虑..
非常多,可是我却来不及考虑那么多..

接着还导致情绪不稳, 暴躁

然后每个人都问我发生什么事.

自己却只能逞强说没事.

当我做事太认真,

我控制不了自己,

情绪很容易低弱.

要是得不到配合,

事情会有很大可能变本加厉.

我不想辜负所有人对我的期望

更不想让家人担心我

此时此刻对自己更产生怀疑

自己所做所为是否真的正确?

每个人都有一定的行事作风,

如何断定自己的行事作风是否对还是错?

如何肯定自己?

 

Are there really have such "elf" creature in this world?

Do you believe in fantasy?

Which will fulfill all your wishes,

whatever you've been wished for,

they will pop-up in front of you just with a snap of the fingers.

It's bullshit? Not logical, totally out of sense.

NOO!!

People thinks negatively more often than being optimistic.

It's hard to be so as reality will press you so hard and will not allow you to get up

to enter to this ring of life to fight for your own.

There's nothing called freedom,

we, as the people, the citizen of the country,

look closer, it's nothing different with those slaves in those Ancient Greek.

We fought so hard for our own living,

so were they,

but it's so less in return compared to what we had given.

The only different within both parties is we're wearing clothes 

and able to cover our dicks on and able to 

get ourselves clean with your shower gel.

Life may be sucks to you,

How great if those fairy tales are true?

You aint gonna work so hard for your own living.

However,

you wouldn't know how survive after.

You wouldn't know what's the value of being a living and emotional being.

You wouldn't know what's the hard work behind in order to gain and the happiness within.

Don't you think it would be hell instead if there's real fairy tales?

Everything is possible, nothing is impossible,

Whatever you wanted to will be just within your ability.

There are no limit for human as our capacity of brain are only developed 20%.

So why give up so easily?

According to those news, 

for those bunch of teenagers who shouted to the public about their suicidal plans.

They are trash of the century, loser of the mankind.

I'm not gonna describe them as man thou.

As you're able to encourage yourself to commit suicide,

don't you have the courage to live out a better life?

God didn't not create problems without giving solution.

Dying will not be the solution as there are still lot's of fantasy out there.

It's impossible to teach you how to be optimistic but will the minimum least,

get rid of those problems which you're struggling with still.

The way those kids did was seriously embarrassing human being.

As for the example for the recent case,

the one who counted down his death.

Fucking thanks to god he knew his parents will be sad about his death.

And his sister who just borned a baby.

He knew, but yet he jumped from the 14th floor.

He's the tragedy of the family, dickhead of the century,

a total big time loser of mankind.

Followed by the case, people admired him, wtf?!

He even captured his own picture before he jumped.

He's must be fucking kidding.

He will be the lousiest person I heard in my life.

A person who gave up life easily will never got blessed by the god. 

The soul will never get it's way and the light will never guide.

Time passed without noticing,

3 months more, I'll be graduated
and its time to choose my further path.

But it will be crazy somehow,

 how i wish the time will just pause,

and resume whenever I wanted to.

I've been thinking of moving, move to somewhere else.

Move away from this lousy town,

move away from this troublesome shitty town,

move to somewhere better,

move to somewhere fresh,

move to somewhere nobody knows me,

move to somewhere nobody conseivably know I'll be.

Restructuring life will be my current objective,

life will always got distracted when you have nothing to focus on.

Schedule.

As I had been educated on how badly the economy is,

how serious politic issues are happening around,

how critical racism is in my home country,

how bastardized the others are,

how violence people are around the community.

People are heading to devolution.

They appreciate nothing but just
pointing their fingers to others 

when they got themselves into troubles.

Every human being will never get
themselves to the actual responsibility

but just push the blame to the others.

It usually happens in the reality especially in the business field.

You will get nailed for sure and tortured.

That's why the college for,

they teach you how to survive in this mess.

But its bullshit,

colleges and universities nowadays are totally commercialized.

Its still seniority based in the end of the day.

As the life is being cruel to you,

you have to be more cruel to the life,

show the guts, show what you have,

show what you worth for you to live on,

show how worthful you are for being alive.

As if you're able to answer these,

shit means nothing to you.

There's always a solution for something,

that's what I believing.

People always like to complaint shits around,

but isn't it great to have shits around?

Or else it will be kinda bored isn't it?

You just can't being messed up if your life was just so perfect.

It's fun when being in the mess.

Enjoy rather than pissed off.

Say thanks to those bastards who hurted you.

They are the "teachers" who taught you
how to be more clever next time.

The world isn't about the money,

isn't about how it gonna end,

its about how you gonna progress it.

Enjoy to the max like a gangsta.

Life is like a short term investment,

how fast you wish for the ROI?

Why so serious? :)

Things started to change whenever I open my eyes.

Life turns such miserable and loned.

Problems keep on approaching

being honest, they're irritating.

They're fucked up people. annoyed.

Nothing smooth ever.

Whenever there was something good came to my life.

Something bad must happened. 

Like doing Accounting. 

Whenever there are profit, there are lost;

Like doing Economy,

opportunity cost everywhere. 

It's called as the balance within each section.

As the theory goes, nothing perfect in life.

No pain, no gain; When you gain, you'll pain.

However, there's no such thing call solution in this world. 

Nothing could be solved. 

You will only able to minimize the problems,

5% of remaining problems will be generally assumed as no problem or solved.

But yet, there's still problems within which shouldn't be ignored.

As the Chinese said, you will leave
your footprint wherever you go.

位于佛教的理念,

因果循环,

有因必有果,

命运已注,

事情的发展, 

一切是否被安排?

如我在 [Fate] 曾经说过的,

只要所有事情的发展过程中

只要其中一样没发生过,

事情的结果都可能会不一样

最近所发生的种种事情

让我想起佛教里的大爱理念,

大爱理念除了在于佛徒里被勉强的抽象化,

基本上在于现今社会里是无法实现的,

现今社会的"爱", 灌入了所谓的金钱法则。

这意味着只要你有钱, 

女友的忠实度会理所当然的大幅度提高。

我相信大部分的人都会反对这种观念,

可是, 想一想,

你们天天通电话免费的哦？

你们出去约会也是免费的?

情人节送对方礼物不用钱?

请对方吃也不需任何花费?

你的车不打油, 打水的哦?

就算躲在家上网聊天而已,

网路费谁给? 还不是一样!

我从来都不明白人与人之间的种种不同的逻辑思维,

我明白一个人的离去, 

伤心是必然的,

舍不得是正常的, 

回忆过去, 是无法避免的。

时间是冲谈过去的良药,

别太勉强自己..

可是在这情况下你不是应该更坚强吗?

而且这也不是责怪的时候吧?

个人认为, 自己位于迷茫状态中

我没他人的坚强, 

我可能连自己都支持不住..

我没办法做到所谓的"大爱"

请告诉我.. 我应该如何? ...

世上的情节,许许多多,

酸甜苦辣,

经历上百种,形形色色,

包罗万象,

简直就是应有尽有.

自从踏入比往前稍微不一样的生活,

除了曾经所描绘的一切现实主义暂时除外,

根据统计, 人总是失去了才懂得珍惜,

这是很普遍的说法,

大家都懂, 不须我多加说明

然而,各种各样的道理我相信各位其实都比我来的精, 

说起来可能我都不知如何对答,

甚至无言以对.

可是在现今社会里的人总是犯下这种错误

 

明明不舍, 可是嘴硬；

口是心非, 心不对口；

拿个情况当比喻,

一个手提电话的故事,

一个身价不高, 不怎么起眼,

多功能, 能信息, 能通电话,

偶尔可能会有短路,

可是很实用, 电池不错, 

常用能耐一天, 

少用则能耐二至三天左右,

好, 省略这些废话不说,

看着篇文章的各位是否曾经经历

心情愤怒至把自己曾经努力多时,

省吃省喝的手提电话狠狠的抛出手? 

类似企图毁掉它.

那时的你, 要是没把它给跌坏,

暂时不会心痛吧?

可能还会拿起它打去叫外卖.

可是有一天, 

它不知不觉失踪了,

被一个长得不是很好看的印度人拿走了,

抢走了, 或者是被骗走了,

不见了.

那时的你, 是否会很心痛?

恨不得要你的"心爱的手机"马上出现在眼前?

一样的, 人也是.

在感情生活里,

在和曾经与自己心爱已久的爱人分手的那一刻,

你会特别地恨她,

可是

时间过了, 心情淡了, 不生气了.

但她已经找到她自己的另一半了,

这时的你是否会

心乱如麻, 回忆不断重播, 开始不舍了,

结果放下自尊, 给了对方一通电话, 

请求原谅, 挽回, 可是自己却又已经有了另一半,

结果把自己放在矛盾状态, 

这就是人的低贱, 

无论你怎么有知识, IQ 如何高明,

你也只不过败在自己一仗.

在显微镜下生存的我们,

是非常渺小的.

关键在于你要如何把事情的画面描绘成你想要的.

我个人野心不大, 

思想范围也有一定的规划,

可是在此, 我可大声证明,

人是如此的犯贱;

人是如此的卑微;

人是如此的高傲;

人是如此的可悲;

人是如此的无助.

更可悲的在于,

人, 从来都不曾懂得珍惜所拥有的

然而渴望的是自己没的,

人是不会满足的..

[ JL 播放: 智者长存 ]

在往常的生活里, 

当一个人进入了某种状态,

装入了某种知识, 某些思考,

人往往都会有异常的待人表现.

以大部分的人来说,

都会把一些小细节给忘了,

例如忘了如何去和别人打招呼,

忘了如何与旁人打交道, 

忘了自己该做的种种事情,

忘了如何做最基本的数学题,

忘了如何处理最简单的问题;

然而当知识遇见了心情,

懂了些不该懂的,

懂了一些残酷的现实,

人固然会忘了原有的笑容..

让我们暂时撇开

知识与状态问题.

假设有一天你想做一样事,

花了力气, 可是力没用够,

结果没达到最好的效果,

那是否等于浪费力气?

其实人这一生, 

你要是想懒,

就应该懒到很厉害, 懒到底;

要嘛就全力以赴,

不要停留在中间状态.

我认为这种人这一辈子是最倒霉的.

懒又懒不成, 什么都做不成,

论努力, 也没少努力;

论花时间, 也没少花时间;

可是就是没有成果.

最后什么好处也得不到.

这不是很白费吗?

及格就好吗? 合格就好, 不求多？

吃得饱就好, 有得穿就好,

把自己埋没在所谓的"知足" 里,

那是在欺骗自己吧?

人在一生里都会

分别与判断,

谁讲得有道理, 谁讲得对;

谁没道理, 谁该这样不该那样;

其实

有道理的东西, 如果没有用, 就是没道理;

而有用的东西, 如果没道理, 就是有道理.

道理是讲的技巧的问题, 

是个讲法的问题;

然而只要是有用的东西, 

那自然的会有应有的道理存在.

记得当时常与人说道理,

个人观点, 做法等.

虽然有用,

可是对方不去做,

结果没用,

那就是没道理了.

所以..你听得懂这道理吗? :)